Dear Zack, Ashton and Amahlia,
Today your little brother will be joining us. He is going to be a lucky little man to have you all as his brother's and sister. He will be loved I know that. Which makes me love you all so much. Zack you want me to call him Brandon. I have no idea where the name came from, but you have stuck with it for quite a while now. I don't hate the name at all, but its not the right name for him. Ashton you just wanted to go to sea world and Mahli when I left you with nan and pop you were high as a kite. I hope you slept for nan and pop.
I have been thinking about you all. Leaving you up the road a few houses away kills me. Everyone thinks I am weird but I find it so hard you all being away from me. Mahli this is the first night ever I have been away from you. I can't wait to see you all and see you meet your new little brother. I made dad take photo of the 4 of us before I dropped you off at nan and pops so I will have them with me at the hospital while you are not there with me. Yes ok I am bad, but I love you!!!
I love you all so much my precious children.
Love mum
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
My songs to you!
When each of you were born and until now still I sing this song to you. I totally made it up but it always calmed each one of you. It is the tune to frere a shaka (Frère Jacques). It goes like this.
Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Zackie/ Zackarie
Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Ashy/ Ashton
Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Mahli/ Amahlia
Koen
I love Koen/ Koey
I love Koen/ Koey
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Koen/ Koey
Love you all my babies!!!
Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Zackie/ Zackarie
Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Ashy/ Ashton
Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Mahli/ Amahlia
Koen
I love Koen/ Koey
I love Koen/ Koey
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Koen/ Koey
Love you all my babies!!!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Zackarie James 5 years 7 months
Dear Zack,
You are getting so big. Both size and in maturity. I tell you all the time it makes me sad and you ask why I said because you are my baby. Your answer to that is Mahli is your baby and soon you will have a new baby. You don't understand yet that you will always be my baby no matter how old or big you are. You have had such a growth spurt the last month or so.
This last week of school holidays you and Ashton have been playing so nicely together. None of the fighting I usually have. I just love watching you play together. Its adorable! I also love seeing you be nice to your brother, he loves you so much and you can be so mean to him at times. You love to chase Mahli around on your hands and knees. She thinks its tops to as she runs away giggling from you. I gave Mahli a smack on the hand for being naughty the other day and I heard you mutter "stupid". I asked you what you said you looked at me in alarm and said nothing, I didn't say nothing. I said who is stupid and you looked at me like shit she heard me but answered you hurt Mahli, Don't hurt Mahli.
You are writing everything and have suprised me on how much you already know such as most of your numbers 0-10. You have such lovely handwriting at the moment to. I hope it stays that way. You can write pop and mum without having to copy just like your own name now. Won't be long until there is plenty more you can write as at the moment it is all you love to do. You are drawing some pretty impressive pictures too. Sea monsters, zoo's, fishing trips, dragons, maps, I love to display them on the fridge.
You are such a worrier. You are worried about me being away when I go have this baby. We were talking about it the other day and you asked when again (as to you, it is taking forever). I said mum will go very early in the morning to have him you said and we will stay with dad with alarm on your face. I said no daddy will come with me then you started panicing about being left on your own. I explained that you would have a sleep over with Manly nan and pop. Then you were worried that you wouldn't wake up to be the first one to see the baby. I assured you nan and pop would wake you and bring you to the hospital to see me and the new baby. You love to "freak the baby out" as you call it you place your head on my tummy and listen for him then if he doesn't move you blow raspberries on my tummy. You think it is so funny. God I love you! You have been so helpful since I have a big stomache. You know it is hard for me to pick up mess off the floor so you go around and pick everything up and put it on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over to get it. You have also a few times just decided to pick up the toyroom toys for me to make it easier on me <3 <3 <3
You are so excited by Kaylie and Lindsays wedding. I suspect when it actually happens you will be like what is that all it was. I know you will have a good time at Salamanders Bay though.
Zack you are the most wonderful, specialist big boy. Love you so much!!!!
Love Mum
You are getting so big. Both size and in maturity. I tell you all the time it makes me sad and you ask why I said because you are my baby. Your answer to that is Mahli is your baby and soon you will have a new baby. You don't understand yet that you will always be my baby no matter how old or big you are. You have had such a growth spurt the last month or so.
This last week of school holidays you and Ashton have been playing so nicely together. None of the fighting I usually have. I just love watching you play together. Its adorable! I also love seeing you be nice to your brother, he loves you so much and you can be so mean to him at times. You love to chase Mahli around on your hands and knees. She thinks its tops to as she runs away giggling from you. I gave Mahli a smack on the hand for being naughty the other day and I heard you mutter "stupid". I asked you what you said you looked at me in alarm and said nothing, I didn't say nothing. I said who is stupid and you looked at me like shit she heard me but answered you hurt Mahli, Don't hurt Mahli.
You are writing everything and have suprised me on how much you already know such as most of your numbers 0-10. You have such lovely handwriting at the moment to. I hope it stays that way. You can write pop and mum without having to copy just like your own name now. Won't be long until there is plenty more you can write as at the moment it is all you love to do. You are drawing some pretty impressive pictures too. Sea monsters, zoo's, fishing trips, dragons, maps, I love to display them on the fridge.
You are such a worrier. You are worried about me being away when I go have this baby. We were talking about it the other day and you asked when again (as to you, it is taking forever). I said mum will go very early in the morning to have him you said and we will stay with dad with alarm on your face. I said no daddy will come with me then you started panicing about being left on your own. I explained that you would have a sleep over with Manly nan and pop. Then you were worried that you wouldn't wake up to be the first one to see the baby. I assured you nan and pop would wake you and bring you to the hospital to see me and the new baby. You love to "freak the baby out" as you call it you place your head on my tummy and listen for him then if he doesn't move you blow raspberries on my tummy. You think it is so funny. God I love you! You have been so helpful since I have a big stomache. You know it is hard for me to pick up mess off the floor so you go around and pick everything up and put it on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over to get it. You have also a few times just decided to pick up the toyroom toys for me to make it easier on me <3 <3 <3
You are so excited by Kaylie and Lindsays wedding. I suspect when it actually happens you will be like what is that all it was. I know you will have a good time at Salamanders Bay though.
Zack you are the most wonderful, specialist big boy. Love you so much!!!!
Love Mum
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Ashton Xavier 3 years 2 months
Dear Ash,
You are the most caring, sweetest soul I have ever met. You melt my heart every single day. You would do anything for anyone. You know how to make everyone feel loved. You laugh is music to my ears. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear you giggle, its just beautiful.
You are getting so good at talking now. When you are excited you sometimes get hard to understand but you are talking in sentences now and I can make out most of it. I was so worried about your speech. I am just so proud on how far you have come. I will say words to make you pronounce them correctly and you parrot me to you say it correctly. You are so clever :) I love you.
I love watching you play with your brother and sister. Your beautiful soul really shows here You make Mahli giggle as you play with her. Sometimes you two are off up to no good. Mahli has your crazy eyes like you do saying who me I am not going to do anything wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. Its so funny. Zack and you can chase after each other in fits of giggles. Watching you both sit together watching something or playing a game together is such a beautiful site.
The lovely trying three's have started with you though and oh there are times you can be bloody challenging LOL. I find you so hard to discipline. I don't know what it is but its just so hard. If you cry my heart breaks, I just can't deal with hearing you cry. I can listen to your brother and sister cry if they are being naughty without much worry but not you. You also get sooooo cranky wow you have a temper. You have started hitting and kicking me when I am making you do something you don't want to such as come home from manly nan and pops.
You are game obsessed at the moment. Mario on the DS lite is one of your favourites and you are good at it. Every day at sleep/rest time you take your leapad in with you and sometimes you play it the whole 2 hours I make you go in there for sometimes you still have your sleep. You are such a good boy with that. I need the rest time and you never fight me very hard about it. Sometimes you go in there before I am even ready to take you. NIght time sleeping is the same. As long as you have something to take in with you you are happy. I had to take the dinosaurs out bc you had thousands in there and truthfully I don't know how you slept. You are now happy to take DVD's with you and you go right off to sleep.
You are still dinosaur mad. Scooby doo too. Dinosaur train, dinosaur king, Scooby doo are your favourite DVD;s to watch right now. You still dance to parts in the movie getting up and boogying. You are so cute.
You are going through a stage where its hard to make you eat dinner. Some nights you will sit up and eat but the next you look and say yuck, don't like it even if we know you do. I hope it doesn't last as long as Zacks did.
Darling never stop giving me your beautiful grin, your sneaky kisses and hearing your wonderful laugh. I love you so much, you are my buddy!
Love you Always
Mum xoxo
You are the most caring, sweetest soul I have ever met. You melt my heart every single day. You would do anything for anyone. You know how to make everyone feel loved. You laugh is music to my ears. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear you giggle, its just beautiful.
You are getting so good at talking now. When you are excited you sometimes get hard to understand but you are talking in sentences now and I can make out most of it. I was so worried about your speech. I am just so proud on how far you have come. I will say words to make you pronounce them correctly and you parrot me to you say it correctly. You are so clever :) I love you.
I love watching you play with your brother and sister. Your beautiful soul really shows here You make Mahli giggle as you play with her. Sometimes you two are off up to no good. Mahli has your crazy eyes like you do saying who me I am not going to do anything wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. Its so funny. Zack and you can chase after each other in fits of giggles. Watching you both sit together watching something or playing a game together is such a beautiful site.
The lovely trying three's have started with you though and oh there are times you can be bloody challenging LOL. I find you so hard to discipline. I don't know what it is but its just so hard. If you cry my heart breaks, I just can't deal with hearing you cry. I can listen to your brother and sister cry if they are being naughty without much worry but not you. You also get sooooo cranky wow you have a temper. You have started hitting and kicking me when I am making you do something you don't want to such as come home from manly nan and pops.
You are game obsessed at the moment. Mario on the DS lite is one of your favourites and you are good at it. Every day at sleep/rest time you take your leapad in with you and sometimes you play it the whole 2 hours I make you go in there for sometimes you still have your sleep. You are such a good boy with that. I need the rest time and you never fight me very hard about it. Sometimes you go in there before I am even ready to take you. NIght time sleeping is the same. As long as you have something to take in with you you are happy. I had to take the dinosaurs out bc you had thousands in there and truthfully I don't know how you slept. You are now happy to take DVD's with you and you go right off to sleep.
You are still dinosaur mad. Scooby doo too. Dinosaur train, dinosaur king, Scooby doo are your favourite DVD;s to watch right now. You still dance to parts in the movie getting up and boogying. You are so cute.
You are going through a stage where its hard to make you eat dinner. Some nights you will sit up and eat but the next you look and say yuck, don't like it even if we know you do. I hope it doesn't last as long as Zacks did.
Darling never stop giving me your beautiful grin, your sneaky kisses and hearing your wonderful laugh. I love you so much, you are my buddy!
Love you Always
Mum xoxo
Monday, September 2, 2013
Amahlia May 15 months
Dear Mahli,
Oh the joy you bring me! You are getting so big so quickly. You also have a HUGE personality! but oh how I love it. You make me laugh every day.
You have become quite the cuddly little thing lately you are giving me so many cuddles every day even if some of them can be a bit rough. Not all of them though so of them are just beautiful, you lay your head on me wrap your hands around me and just squeeze. You also love to put your hands either side of my face and smile at me, sometimes giving me a little pat. Another favourite is Eskimo kisses where you rub your noes against mine with your hand either side of me face. I love every minute of all of your cuddles! I will NEVER EVER get tired of them. I hope you never stop.
You are such a demanding little thing. If you want something you yell until you get it. If I say no then you yell and cry. You are even known for throwing things if you are not getting something your way. Yes your brothers do that at time but not as young as you are doing it. It does give me a little laugh though.
You have your brothers wrapped around your little finger and I am sure you always will being the only girl. Today when we were picking up Zack from pre school he told all of his friends they had to say goodbye to you and wave to you bc you will wave back. It was rather cute. He is so proud of you and to call you his brother. Ashton has started giving you kisses and proudly jumps up and down saying I give Mahli a lovely kiss. He is also giving out cuddles to you. You to get up to no good I can see you walking around together trying to find something to get up to together.
You are trying to copy your brothers and jump up and down when you are excited just like they do. Its so cute bc you can't jump instead you lift one leg up and down laughing and smiling. I love watching it. I do wonder where that kangaroo you all have comes from.
THAT SMILE OMG that cheeky ginning smile. It looks so fake! It looks so much like you are saying I couldn't do a thing wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. You walk around and give that grin to us and Manly nan and pop all the time. I am perfect I wouldn't do anything naughty. Its so funny.
You are saying so many words now. Mum, dad, nan, puss, please, woof for example. You are still a bloody climber and will be the death on me it freaks me out. Your fav is to climb onto the lounge and then limb onto the arm of the lounge and look out the window, turn around and give me that grin that I am clever. Then you like to run back and forwards on the lounge shit it scares me.
Mahli you are my beautiful, precious girl. Don't ever change! I love you so much.
Love Mum
Oh the joy you bring me! You are getting so big so quickly. You also have a HUGE personality! but oh how I love it. You make me laugh every day.
You have become quite the cuddly little thing lately you are giving me so many cuddles every day even if some of them can be a bit rough. Not all of them though so of them are just beautiful, you lay your head on me wrap your hands around me and just squeeze. You also love to put your hands either side of my face and smile at me, sometimes giving me a little pat. Another favourite is Eskimo kisses where you rub your noes against mine with your hand either side of me face. I love every minute of all of your cuddles! I will NEVER EVER get tired of them. I hope you never stop.
You are such a demanding little thing. If you want something you yell until you get it. If I say no then you yell and cry. You are even known for throwing things if you are not getting something your way. Yes your brothers do that at time but not as young as you are doing it. It does give me a little laugh though.
You have your brothers wrapped around your little finger and I am sure you always will being the only girl. Today when we were picking up Zack from pre school he told all of his friends they had to say goodbye to you and wave to you bc you will wave back. It was rather cute. He is so proud of you and to call you his brother. Ashton has started giving you kisses and proudly jumps up and down saying I give Mahli a lovely kiss. He is also giving out cuddles to you. You to get up to no good I can see you walking around together trying to find something to get up to together.
You are trying to copy your brothers and jump up and down when you are excited just like they do. Its so cute bc you can't jump instead you lift one leg up and down laughing and smiling. I love watching it. I do wonder where that kangaroo you all have comes from.
THAT SMILE OMG that cheeky ginning smile. It looks so fake! It looks so much like you are saying I couldn't do a thing wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. You walk around and give that grin to us and Manly nan and pop all the time. I am perfect I wouldn't do anything naughty. Its so funny.
You are saying so many words now. Mum, dad, nan, puss, please, woof for example. You are still a bloody climber and will be the death on me it freaks me out. Your fav is to climb onto the lounge and then limb onto the arm of the lounge and look out the window, turn around and give me that grin that I am clever. Then you like to run back and forwards on the lounge shit it scares me.
Mahli you are my beautiful, precious girl. Don't ever change! I love you so much.
Love Mum
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Christmas 2012
Dear my precious',
Another Christmas is over and gee you were spoilt. I still 2 days later don't know where I am going to put everything. Christmas eve I brought your santa sacks to dad while you were not here and he says to me. Good to see you didn't go overboard LOL. What can I say I could have gone more overboard. I love to buy you things and make you happy.
Christmas Eve we went to Bib's house and you had a ball running around with Ella and Gemma. Playing on the trampoline and waiting until it was time to go home and get ready for Santa to come. When we got home you were so excited Zack. I quickly popped the 3 of you and me in the shower for a quick wash then we started to get ready. As soon as we got out of the shower and I was dressed I told you to go sit on the lounge as I had a present for you. I sat Amahlia in between you both and got your presents. You opened them up and you Zack pipped up with why is it only clothes, most unimpressed. I had to laugh. When I told you they were Christmas pj's to wear because Santa was coming tonight you excitedly put them on. Zack you and I then went to get the reindeers some food. You chose to give them 2 carrots and some broccoli. When I asked you what you wanted to leave for Santa you said milk, a banana and a mango. So that is what we left out. You didn't want santa to get to fat LOL. You then laid out everyones santa sacks getting very annoyed with Ashton as he moved them around on you. Then the 4 of us went into your room to watch a movie while your father passed out on the lounge.
I woke Zack and Ashton up at 7.30am unable to wait for you any longer wanting to see your eyes light up while opening your presents from Santa. Zack got right into it openeing present after present every now and then going over to get something out from mum and dads stockings to open it for them. Ashton was happy running around with the first present you opened. Ash finally got into it and you all had a ball. While you were opening your presents Mahli woke up and I let you help her open her presents after you had opened all of both of yours.
We then went to Manly nan and pops for breakfast and more presents. Then off to Eel nans and pops for lunch and more presents. After lunch we went to Aunty Kims to meet with everyone to open more presesnts from everyone. You had a great time being santa's helpers and handing out the presents and opening your own.
After seeing everyone and opening all your presents we went home so you can play with everything and I mean EVERYTHING you got. You were all very very spoilt.
Another Christmas is over and gee you were spoilt. I still 2 days later don't know where I am going to put everything. Christmas eve I brought your santa sacks to dad while you were not here and he says to me. Good to see you didn't go overboard LOL. What can I say I could have gone more overboard. I love to buy you things and make you happy.
Christmas Eve we went to Bib's house and you had a ball running around with Ella and Gemma. Playing on the trampoline and waiting until it was time to go home and get ready for Santa to come. When we got home you were so excited Zack. I quickly popped the 3 of you and me in the shower for a quick wash then we started to get ready. As soon as we got out of the shower and I was dressed I told you to go sit on the lounge as I had a present for you. I sat Amahlia in between you both and got your presents. You opened them up and you Zack pipped up with why is it only clothes, most unimpressed. I had to laugh. When I told you they were Christmas pj's to wear because Santa was coming tonight you excitedly put them on. Zack you and I then went to get the reindeers some food. You chose to give them 2 carrots and some broccoli. When I asked you what you wanted to leave for Santa you said milk, a banana and a mango. So that is what we left out. You didn't want santa to get to fat LOL. You then laid out everyones santa sacks getting very annoyed with Ashton as he moved them around on you. Then the 4 of us went into your room to watch a movie while your father passed out on the lounge.
I woke Zack and Ashton up at 7.30am unable to wait for you any longer wanting to see your eyes light up while opening your presents from Santa. Zack got right into it openeing present after present every now and then going over to get something out from mum and dads stockings to open it for them. Ashton was happy running around with the first present you opened. Ash finally got into it and you all had a ball. While you were opening your presents Mahli woke up and I let you help her open her presents after you had opened all of both of yours.
We then went to Manly nan and pops for breakfast and more presents. Then off to Eel nans and pops for lunch and more presents. After lunch we went to Aunty Kims to meet with everyone to open more presesnts from everyone. You had a great time being santa's helpers and handing out the presents and opening your own.
After seeing everyone and opening all your presents we went home so you can play with everything and I mean EVERYTHING you got. You were all very very spoilt.
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| Sacks all out waiting for Santa to come |
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| Santa's snack |
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| Reindeer food |
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| Santa's been!!! |
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| Sleeping beauty! |
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| Oh dear |
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| Chrissy day dress |
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| All the toys Lucky lot |
Zackarie James 5 years 5 months
Dear My Big Boy,
Last night I accidentally called Ashton "Big boy" and I got in trouble from you because that is what I call you. You said "Mum don't call him that that is what you call me, call him your little boy" I said oh sorry I won't do it anymore. So now I am trying very hard not to slip up. You will always be my biggest boy!
You are getting so big and clever. There is so much you can do now. It makes me sad watching you get so big and not needing me as much. You can be so helpful. You get into our car clip your brother in for me into his seat then get into your seat and do yourself up. So clever. You are a master at writing your name. You have brought stories home from pre school that you wrote with one of the teachers. I can tell you are so ready for school next year. You know it hurt mummy to bend over and pick things up from the floor (pregnant with your youngest brother) so you pick up all your toys for me or put everything on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over. You are so much more helpful to me then your father is.
You are still mummy's boy and I think you will always be. You and your father clash heads to much and I do think your dad is to hard on you and expects more of you then he should. He forgets you are 5 not 15 years old. Make me even more protective of you. You are such a sensitive soul and I worry about you. I love you so much and I don't want you to hurt or think I don't love you ever bc I love you so much Zackie. Don't ever forget it.
You currently love to watch mario on you tube. You ask me all the time to watch it on the laptop or tablet. Wrestling with Ashton is also a favourite passtime. I wish you wouldn't you are so much bigger and stronger than him I am scared you are going to hurt him. You love playing soccer. You try your little heart out although you mostly jump up and down and run around behind everyone else. I just love watching you play it is so cute. You are very good at kicking the ball though when your coach calls you up to kick off.
Zack don't ever EVER think that I don't love you. I love you more then anything in this world. Don't forget it you are my wonderful, smart, beautiful, big boy! LOVE YOU EVA!
Love Mum xxxoooxxx
Last night I accidentally called Ashton "Big boy" and I got in trouble from you because that is what I call you. You said "Mum don't call him that that is what you call me, call him your little boy" I said oh sorry I won't do it anymore. So now I am trying very hard not to slip up. You will always be my biggest boy!
You are getting so big and clever. There is so much you can do now. It makes me sad watching you get so big and not needing me as much. You can be so helpful. You get into our car clip your brother in for me into his seat then get into your seat and do yourself up. So clever. You are a master at writing your name. You have brought stories home from pre school that you wrote with one of the teachers. I can tell you are so ready for school next year. You know it hurt mummy to bend over and pick things up from the floor (pregnant with your youngest brother) so you pick up all your toys for me or put everything on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over. You are so much more helpful to me then your father is.
You are still mummy's boy and I think you will always be. You and your father clash heads to much and I do think your dad is to hard on you and expects more of you then he should. He forgets you are 5 not 15 years old. Make me even more protective of you. You are such a sensitive soul and I worry about you. I love you so much and I don't want you to hurt or think I don't love you ever bc I love you so much Zackie. Don't ever forget it.
You currently love to watch mario on you tube. You ask me all the time to watch it on the laptop or tablet. Wrestling with Ashton is also a favourite passtime. I wish you wouldn't you are so much bigger and stronger than him I am scared you are going to hurt him. You love playing soccer. You try your little heart out although you mostly jump up and down and run around behind everyone else. I just love watching you play it is so cute. You are very good at kicking the ball though when your coach calls you up to kick off.
Zack don't ever EVER think that I don't love you. I love you more then anything in this world. Don't forget it you are my wonderful, smart, beautiful, big boy! LOVE YOU EVA!
Love Mum xxxoooxxx
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