Dear Mahli,
Mt precious girl, you have found the last 9 weeks hard. I do feel guilty. You are still a baby and you don't understand. You don't understand that the bubba needs mummy more than you at the moment because it was you that had so much of my attention not long ago. It was you who was the baby. I have shed many guilty tears about it all. I have tried so hard to give you as much attention as I can but its not all of my attention so its not good enough.
You just love to read and I think this is a big thing you miss. We use to read several books every night before bed but that is hard at the moment. Even when I do try to read to you. If Koen is on my lap you want him gone NOW!!!! You love to point to the animals while I make the noises they make. You think its great!
You are saying so many words. Such a clever chook.
You love giving kisses we were just playing a game where you where pretending to smack me I would pretend to cry so you would hug me moving closer making kissing noise then giving me a kiss to make me feel better. It was very sweet! You are FOREVER kissing Koen now that you have finally accepted him. Some times is so often it drives me mad LOL. Zack also gets many kisses and you sneak a few in to Ashton to when he is watching tv, its very cute and funny.
Lollies are your favourites. You ask for Loll lolls all the time. At Manly nan and pops you go up to nan or pop and look up at them and say loll loll and off you walk to the room where they are. If they don't come you come back and do the same thing over and over again. You are very patient yet persistent. Cheese sticks and the leSnack cheese and biscuits are also a fav.
Manly nan is your favourite person especially after you spent a week with her when I had Koen. She comes home from work when we are up there and you go running outside to her in her car yelling nan nan with your arms out to be picked up. Nan loves it. Pop is still very high up but you are a nannies girl.
You are a girl that knows what she wants and will get it. If someone takes something off you, says no or does something you don't like you let us all know. You will whing and whine until you are so annoying its easier to give in to shut you up. You are going to be such a spoilt thing having your 3 brothers watch over you and protect you. Zack just idolises you so much.
You are the master of the cheesy, I am not doing anything, butter wouldn't melt, face. I love the grin you give us and you do it so often. Its like you are saying its ok mummy just breath I won't do anything naughty. Look at how cute I am, see! Don't get mad but...... such a cheeky thing you are!
You and Ashton together is trouble. When Zack is at school you are off together getting up to no good. I love listening to you both giggling away together. God help me.
Amahlia I still just love your name but I love you so much more. You are such a strong willed thing. Its not a negative thing I don't think so keep it up (just not with me ok). I love love love you so much you cheeky, beautiful, precious girl.
Love
Mum xoxo
Monday, December 9, 2013
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Koen Lachlan 6 weeks old
Dear Koen,
I love you! You are such a gorgeous, precious little man. I can tell already you have a firery temperament, but I can also see you are going to be cuddly, you love me to hold you and I love when you stretch out on my chest with your head to the side, just chilling I could sit there with you like that forever. Pity your siblings don't like it especially Mahli.
You sure can let out a squeal/scream. Your brothers and sister couldn't cry/squeal like you can. I suppose being the fourth you need to be loud so we can hear you over your noisy siblings. You don't cry to much though really. There has only been a couple times you have had me stressed bc you wouldn't stop crying. You mainly cry when you have a pain, which makes me sad, bc I just want to fix it for you which I try my best to do.
You HATE to be put down. You won't be down for anymore then a few minutes till you let me know you don't like this, pick me up right now. Its just like you are showing me you love me just as much as I love you. At times you could be crying with your father, he passes you to me and you settle down right away. Melts my heart and I love that you love me as much as I love you and that I can tell that already at 6 weeks old. Although this makes it so hard to get photos of you. I don't want photos of you crying I want nice photos. I just can't get them when you want to be held by me.
You are Mr serious too. I am currently trying SOOOOO hard to get you to smile. I know you are only young but you have given me one smile and it was beautiful and you gave Manley pop one too. BUT you frown and look at me like I am an idiot most of the time. It will come soon. I can't wait.
I had to take you back to the hospital when you were 4.5 weeks old. You were still a little yellow and I wanted to make sure it was all ok. Even though I pretty much knew you were as you were so happy, healthy etc I thought it was better to be safe then sorry. They took your blood and OMG you screamed so much I have never heard you scream so much. It was breaking my heart. You were so red and sweating. There was blood everywhere all up your foot and leg :(. Then they told me I had to go back 3 days later to have another one I so wasn't looking forward to it. This time you hardly cried at all. It was all ok, made me feel better just knowing for sure.
You are such a good feeder, have been since the first time I held you properly. I can tell how much weight you have gained and how much you have grown already. It seems like you have grown so much. It actually makes me a little sad that you are growing so fast. You need to slow down precious little man.
You are another tummy sleeper. Gives me heart attacks. I am to scared to let you sleep of a night by yourself on your tummy. You will sleep for a little while in your basinett on your side but most of the time that is until I get into bed to sleep or an hour later. So most if not all of the night you sleep in my hands of a night, every night. It kills my back but its worth it. I do love the cuddles but laying in the same position for so long isn't the most comfortable. You are a good sleeper though, best I have had you sleep much longer then your brothers and sister at your age, which I am thankful for. Because it is hard work raising 4 kids.
Koen I love you so much. I am so happy you chose me to be your mummy. I will make mistakes, make you unhappy, yell and get frustrated at you. BUT ALWAYS, ALWAYS remember that I love you more than any words can express. I would do anything for you, you and your brothers and sister are my whole world and without you and them my life wouldn't be worth it. I love you precious little man.
Love Mum xoxo
I love you! You are such a gorgeous, precious little man. I can tell already you have a firery temperament, but I can also see you are going to be cuddly, you love me to hold you and I love when you stretch out on my chest with your head to the side, just chilling I could sit there with you like that forever. Pity your siblings don't like it especially Mahli.
You sure can let out a squeal/scream. Your brothers and sister couldn't cry/squeal like you can. I suppose being the fourth you need to be loud so we can hear you over your noisy siblings. You don't cry to much though really. There has only been a couple times you have had me stressed bc you wouldn't stop crying. You mainly cry when you have a pain, which makes me sad, bc I just want to fix it for you which I try my best to do.
You HATE to be put down. You won't be down for anymore then a few minutes till you let me know you don't like this, pick me up right now. Its just like you are showing me you love me just as much as I love you. At times you could be crying with your father, he passes you to me and you settle down right away. Melts my heart and I love that you love me as much as I love you and that I can tell that already at 6 weeks old. Although this makes it so hard to get photos of you. I don't want photos of you crying I want nice photos. I just can't get them when you want to be held by me.
You are Mr serious too. I am currently trying SOOOOO hard to get you to smile. I know you are only young but you have given me one smile and it was beautiful and you gave Manley pop one too. BUT you frown and look at me like I am an idiot most of the time. It will come soon. I can't wait.
I had to take you back to the hospital when you were 4.5 weeks old. You were still a little yellow and I wanted to make sure it was all ok. Even though I pretty much knew you were as you were so happy, healthy etc I thought it was better to be safe then sorry. They took your blood and OMG you screamed so much I have never heard you scream so much. It was breaking my heart. You were so red and sweating. There was blood everywhere all up your foot and leg :(. Then they told me I had to go back 3 days later to have another one I so wasn't looking forward to it. This time you hardly cried at all. It was all ok, made me feel better just knowing for sure.
You are such a good feeder, have been since the first time I held you properly. I can tell how much weight you have gained and how much you have grown already. It seems like you have grown so much. It actually makes me a little sad that you are growing so fast. You need to slow down precious little man.
You are another tummy sleeper. Gives me heart attacks. I am to scared to let you sleep of a night by yourself on your tummy. You will sleep for a little while in your basinett on your side but most of the time that is until I get into bed to sleep or an hour later. So most if not all of the night you sleep in my hands of a night, every night. It kills my back but its worth it. I do love the cuddles but laying in the same position for so long isn't the most comfortable. You are a good sleeper though, best I have had you sleep much longer then your brothers and sister at your age, which I am thankful for. Because it is hard work raising 4 kids.
Koen I love you so much. I am so happy you chose me to be your mummy. I will make mistakes, make you unhappy, yell and get frustrated at you. BUT ALWAYS, ALWAYS remember that I love you more than any words can express. I would do anything for you, you and your brothers and sister are my whole world and without you and them my life wouldn't be worth it. I love you precious little man.
Love Mum xoxo
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
The birth of Koen Lachlan 9/10/13
This pregnancy had been pretty easy compared to my other 3. I got through without getting gestational diabetes again which I was soooo thankful for. Not because I found it hard with Amahlia because I didn't, but, because I didn't want to go to Maitland Hospital again because it makes it so hard on everyone. The only problem we had was they changed my date for my c-section from 2nd October to the 9th October as the surgeon was going to be away on the 2nd so I was afraid of going into labour since I had an irritable uterus and that would mean I had to go to a different hospital which I didn't want to do, as the other hospital has a bad reputation.
8th October finally came and we spent the day at Scone visiting the hospital to get blood taken for c-section then anthesis appointment for my spinal the next day which I did inform him he had had trouble with my first two spinals. That night I had tea with the kids, bathed them, then took them up to mum and dad where they were staying the night as I had to be at the hospital early the next day. The kids were excited to be having a sleep over. I was shocked how calm I was and that I didn't break down crying when leaving them like I did when I went to have Amahlia. After getting home I had planned to finish changing everyone sheets and fold the last basket of clothing but James talked me into going to bed with him and watching a movie and relaxing which I gave in and did. Turns out it was a bad idea as I woke early in the night to go to the toilet like usual and then couldn't go back to sleep as I kept thinking about the one left unmade bed and the washing that wasn't folded. At 3am I ended up getting up and changed the sheets on Zack's bed (I did the rest the night before) and sat and watch tv (teen mom) while folding and putting away the last load of washing.
At 5am we left for the hospital, arrived at the hospital at 6am took my stuff in got shown to my room. I was the only one at the hospital in the maternity ward so it was very quiet. I got dressed into my gown, put my sexy stockings on, went on the monitor to check baby etc. and waited until they came got me.
At about 7.45am they came to get me to take me to theater. It was all very relaxed and I was feeling good about the spinal as they got it in right away with Amahlia. I was trying to think positive about it happening again. (The spinal has always been the thing I was scared most about my c-section). Thinking positive didn't work. I find "scrunching up like a cat" as the say the most uncomfortable thing ever when you are pregnant. Yes it is ok for a few minutes but longer it makes it bloody hard to breath. After 1.5-2 hours it is HORRIBLE. The 100 of times he put the needles in my back were not as bad as the "scrunching up like a cat".
He did think he got it in at one stage. They laid me down and the surgeon was scrubbing in. I knew right away it wasn't, apparently the spinal fluid came out like it was meant to but must have slipped out when he put the stuff in so it was floating around in my body somewhere. After many times checking if it worked, I kept saying no I can still feel everything. NO way where they cutting me when I could feel it. I had to wait 15 minutes before he would try again as he didn't know if the stuff would effect me in some way. It didn't though so he started trying again.
He did want to stop trying earlier but I was soooo desperate to have him I asked him to have a few more times. He did say to me what about my ego??( the poor guy felt so bad) when I asked him to try again. The other 2 anthesis where away so there was no one to call in like they did when he couldn't get it in with Ashton. He finally gave up though and talks started about me having to go to Maitland hospital to get it done. All I was worried about was having him that day. I didn't want to wait any longer. Mum and dad had a motel booked at Scone with the kids and that was going to be a pain. I stayed very calm though. I walked back to my room :( and waited to see if we would be going to Maitland that day to have it done. My back was now killing me too. Here is a pic of my back the next morning. I had bruises up my sides from them sticking there fingers into my fat to feel for my hips
It felt like ages waiting to know what was happening but finally Maitland got back to them and I was going to Maitland to get done that day. I was so relieved I was told to go right to labour ward when I get there. So off James and I go for another 1.5 hour drive to get there. It really hurt my back the drive down there and I was sooo tired. Gee I wished I didn't get up at 3am. I was so hungry and thirsty as I had been fasting since 8pm for food and midnight for water.
We got there and they put me into a labour room as they had no beds for me. The monitored me, but another canula in me which hurt like hell. Then informed me I wasn't on the list as they couldn't put me on the list until I got there. They then went on to tell me that they don't know if it would be that day or the next but I had to keep fasting in case. So there was ALOT of waiting, I was told that they closed theater at 10pm so could be waiting till then. I so wanted a drink.
At 6pm they finally came and said they were taking me up and I was taken. I drank the horrible tasting crap for the 2nd time and was positive the spinal was going to go in easy like it did when I had Mahli at the same hospital since they do them every day unlike Scone hospital. I wish! He had problems too. They were shocked with the state of my back already but at least this time I had James in with me while they were trying to put it in. He was the one standing in front of me which I liked. The anthesis told me I was a problem and he was going to give it one more try and if it didn't work I was going to have to go under general. I tried not to panic as that was the last thing I wanted. Thank god he got it in (He later told me he actually gave it two more tries) Talk about relief I was going to meet my little man finally and I was going to be awake to see it happen.
Finally at 6.52pm James was told to stand up and watch him be born, it was announced he was born at the time then I was told he had peed all over me already. He was shown to me then taken over to be checked over. Felt like ages that he was away getting checked over and James cutting his cord etc. The anthesis said to me what is taking them so long and called out hurry up mum wants a cuddle. He was brought to me and I got cuddles while they were sewing me up. He was sucking his fingers the whole time. James said to me he is going to give us trouble he has been born a few minutes and he has already peed on you and he just stuck his finger up at me LOL. James and the midwife then took him to be weighed etc. while they finished off my last layer of stitchers and took me to recovery.
At recovery they finally got me some ice to suck and it was great. James and bub came to me and he latched on right away and had a great feed. I was finally let out of recovery and we were wheeled back to my room, where James met me (he had gone to ring people while we were in recovery). We started discussing names but couldn't agree on anything. I was exhausted so decided we would wait. James had to go find somewhere to stay the night as it was 9pm. Poor thing had no clothes or anything, he hadn't ate all day as he was scared if he left to get something they would come get me to have him.
That night he screamed lots. The midwife couldn't settle him, the only way he would settle was on my chest so she put him there and we dosed that way, as I was right near the nurses station so it was noisy. As soon as they let me I got the catheter removed so I could get up and shower as I was desperate to get back to Scone where I would have my own room and finally get some sleep. They let me the next morning even though the midwife on night duty told me not till the afternoon I was up at 10am. At 12.30 I was aloud to go back to Scone so we packed up and James drove us back to Scone. On the way we discussed names again, my hormonal self cried as I wanted him named and James was fine with him not having a name for as long as it took. James wanted one name I wanted another. We both liked Koen so I suggested we compromised and went with Koen Lachlan. He still wouldn't commit. So I messaged my family and announced baby boy never to be named was born etc etc etc...... When James was leaving to go home from Scone he came in from getting my pillows out of the car and said lets call him Koen. So I announced it to everyone else. I am really happy with his name.
So details and pics
Koen Lachlan
born 9th October 2013
at 6.52pm
3800grams or 8pounds 6oz
35.5 HC and 48cm long
8th October finally came and we spent the day at Scone visiting the hospital to get blood taken for c-section then anthesis appointment for my spinal the next day which I did inform him he had had trouble with my first two spinals. That night I had tea with the kids, bathed them, then took them up to mum and dad where they were staying the night as I had to be at the hospital early the next day. The kids were excited to be having a sleep over. I was shocked how calm I was and that I didn't break down crying when leaving them like I did when I went to have Amahlia. After getting home I had planned to finish changing everyone sheets and fold the last basket of clothing but James talked me into going to bed with him and watching a movie and relaxing which I gave in and did. Turns out it was a bad idea as I woke early in the night to go to the toilet like usual and then couldn't go back to sleep as I kept thinking about the one left unmade bed and the washing that wasn't folded. At 3am I ended up getting up and changed the sheets on Zack's bed (I did the rest the night before) and sat and watch tv (teen mom) while folding and putting away the last load of washing.
At 5am we left for the hospital, arrived at the hospital at 6am took my stuff in got shown to my room. I was the only one at the hospital in the maternity ward so it was very quiet. I got dressed into my gown, put my sexy stockings on, went on the monitor to check baby etc. and waited until they came got me.
At about 7.45am they came to get me to take me to theater. It was all very relaxed and I was feeling good about the spinal as they got it in right away with Amahlia. I was trying to think positive about it happening again. (The spinal has always been the thing I was scared most about my c-section). Thinking positive didn't work. I find "scrunching up like a cat" as the say the most uncomfortable thing ever when you are pregnant. Yes it is ok for a few minutes but longer it makes it bloody hard to breath. After 1.5-2 hours it is HORRIBLE. The 100 of times he put the needles in my back were not as bad as the "scrunching up like a cat".
He did think he got it in at one stage. They laid me down and the surgeon was scrubbing in. I knew right away it wasn't, apparently the spinal fluid came out like it was meant to but must have slipped out when he put the stuff in so it was floating around in my body somewhere. After many times checking if it worked, I kept saying no I can still feel everything. NO way where they cutting me when I could feel it. I had to wait 15 minutes before he would try again as he didn't know if the stuff would effect me in some way. It didn't though so he started trying again.
He did want to stop trying earlier but I was soooo desperate to have him I asked him to have a few more times. He did say to me what about my ego??( the poor guy felt so bad) when I asked him to try again. The other 2 anthesis where away so there was no one to call in like they did when he couldn't get it in with Ashton. He finally gave up though and talks started about me having to go to Maitland hospital to get it done. All I was worried about was having him that day. I didn't want to wait any longer. Mum and dad had a motel booked at Scone with the kids and that was going to be a pain. I stayed very calm though. I walked back to my room :( and waited to see if we would be going to Maitland that day to have it done. My back was now killing me too. Here is a pic of my back the next morning. I had bruises up my sides from them sticking there fingers into my fat to feel for my hips
It felt like ages waiting to know what was happening but finally Maitland got back to them and I was going to Maitland to get done that day. I was so relieved I was told to go right to labour ward when I get there. So off James and I go for another 1.5 hour drive to get there. It really hurt my back the drive down there and I was sooo tired. Gee I wished I didn't get up at 3am. I was so hungry and thirsty as I had been fasting since 8pm for food and midnight for water.
We got there and they put me into a labour room as they had no beds for me. The monitored me, but another canula in me which hurt like hell. Then informed me I wasn't on the list as they couldn't put me on the list until I got there. They then went on to tell me that they don't know if it would be that day or the next but I had to keep fasting in case. So there was ALOT of waiting, I was told that they closed theater at 10pm so could be waiting till then. I so wanted a drink.
At 6pm they finally came and said they were taking me up and I was taken. I drank the horrible tasting crap for the 2nd time and was positive the spinal was going to go in easy like it did when I had Mahli at the same hospital since they do them every day unlike Scone hospital. I wish! He had problems too. They were shocked with the state of my back already but at least this time I had James in with me while they were trying to put it in. He was the one standing in front of me which I liked. The anthesis told me I was a problem and he was going to give it one more try and if it didn't work I was going to have to go under general. I tried not to panic as that was the last thing I wanted. Thank god he got it in (He later told me he actually gave it two more tries) Talk about relief I was going to meet my little man finally and I was going to be awake to see it happen.
Finally at 6.52pm James was told to stand up and watch him be born, it was announced he was born at the time then I was told he had peed all over me already. He was shown to me then taken over to be checked over. Felt like ages that he was away getting checked over and James cutting his cord etc. The anthesis said to me what is taking them so long and called out hurry up mum wants a cuddle. He was brought to me and I got cuddles while they were sewing me up. He was sucking his fingers the whole time. James said to me he is going to give us trouble he has been born a few minutes and he has already peed on you and he just stuck his finger up at me LOL. James and the midwife then took him to be weighed etc. while they finished off my last layer of stitchers and took me to recovery.
At recovery they finally got me some ice to suck and it was great. James and bub came to me and he latched on right away and had a great feed. I was finally let out of recovery and we were wheeled back to my room, where James met me (he had gone to ring people while we were in recovery). We started discussing names but couldn't agree on anything. I was exhausted so decided we would wait. James had to go find somewhere to stay the night as it was 9pm. Poor thing had no clothes or anything, he hadn't ate all day as he was scared if he left to get something they would come get me to have him.
That night he screamed lots. The midwife couldn't settle him, the only way he would settle was on my chest so she put him there and we dosed that way, as I was right near the nurses station so it was noisy. As soon as they let me I got the catheter removed so I could get up and shower as I was desperate to get back to Scone where I would have my own room and finally get some sleep. They let me the next morning even though the midwife on night duty told me not till the afternoon I was up at 10am. At 12.30 I was aloud to go back to Scone so we packed up and James drove us back to Scone. On the way we discussed names again, my hormonal self cried as I wanted him named and James was fine with him not having a name for as long as it took. James wanted one name I wanted another. We both liked Koen so I suggested we compromised and went with Koen Lachlan. He still wouldn't commit. So I messaged my family and announced baby boy never to be named was born etc etc etc...... When James was leaving to go home from Scone he came in from getting my pillows out of the car and said lets call him Koen. So I announced it to everyone else. I am really happy with his name.
So details and pics
Koen Lachlan
born 9th October 2013
at 6.52pm
3800grams or 8pounds 6oz
35.5 HC and 48cm long
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Last time a family of 5
Dear Zack, Ashton and Amahlia,
Today your little brother will be joining us. He is going to be a lucky little man to have you all as his brother's and sister. He will be loved I know that. Which makes me love you all so much. Zack you want me to call him Brandon. I have no idea where the name came from, but you have stuck with it for quite a while now. I don't hate the name at all, but its not the right name for him. Ashton you just wanted to go to sea world and Mahli when I left you with nan and pop you were high as a kite. I hope you slept for nan and pop.
I have been thinking about you all. Leaving you up the road a few houses away kills me. Everyone thinks I am weird but I find it so hard you all being away from me. Mahli this is the first night ever I have been away from you. I can't wait to see you all and see you meet your new little brother. I made dad take photo of the 4 of us before I dropped you off at nan and pops so I will have them with me at the hospital while you are not there with me. Yes ok I am bad, but I love you!!!
I love you all so much my precious children.
Love mum
Today your little brother will be joining us. He is going to be a lucky little man to have you all as his brother's and sister. He will be loved I know that. Which makes me love you all so much. Zack you want me to call him Brandon. I have no idea where the name came from, but you have stuck with it for quite a while now. I don't hate the name at all, but its not the right name for him. Ashton you just wanted to go to sea world and Mahli when I left you with nan and pop you were high as a kite. I hope you slept for nan and pop.
I have been thinking about you all. Leaving you up the road a few houses away kills me. Everyone thinks I am weird but I find it so hard you all being away from me. Mahli this is the first night ever I have been away from you. I can't wait to see you all and see you meet your new little brother. I made dad take photo of the 4 of us before I dropped you off at nan and pops so I will have them with me at the hospital while you are not there with me. Yes ok I am bad, but I love you!!!
I love you all so much my precious children.
Love mum
My songs to you!
When each of you were born and until now still I sing this song to you. I totally made it up but it always calmed each one of you. It is the tune to frere a shaka (Frère Jacques). It goes like this.
Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Zackie/ Zackarie
Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Ashy/ Ashton
Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Mahli/ Amahlia
Koen
I love Koen/ Koey
I love Koen/ Koey
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Koen/ Koey
Love you all my babies!!!
Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
I love Zackie/Zackarie
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Zackie/ Zackarie
Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
I love Ashy/ Ashton
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Ashy/ Ashton
Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
I love Mahli/ Amahlia
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Mahli/ Amahlia
Koen
I love Koen/ Koey
I love Koen/ Koey
Yes I do
Yes I do
And I always will
And I always will
Love you, Koen/ Koey
Love you all my babies!!!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Zackarie James 5 years 7 months
Dear Zack,
You are getting so big. Both size and in maturity. I tell you all the time it makes me sad and you ask why I said because you are my baby. Your answer to that is Mahli is your baby and soon you will have a new baby. You don't understand yet that you will always be my baby no matter how old or big you are. You have had such a growth spurt the last month or so.
This last week of school holidays you and Ashton have been playing so nicely together. None of the fighting I usually have. I just love watching you play together. Its adorable! I also love seeing you be nice to your brother, he loves you so much and you can be so mean to him at times. You love to chase Mahli around on your hands and knees. She thinks its tops to as she runs away giggling from you. I gave Mahli a smack on the hand for being naughty the other day and I heard you mutter "stupid". I asked you what you said you looked at me in alarm and said nothing, I didn't say nothing. I said who is stupid and you looked at me like shit she heard me but answered you hurt Mahli, Don't hurt Mahli.
You are writing everything and have suprised me on how much you already know such as most of your numbers 0-10. You have such lovely handwriting at the moment to. I hope it stays that way. You can write pop and mum without having to copy just like your own name now. Won't be long until there is plenty more you can write as at the moment it is all you love to do. You are drawing some pretty impressive pictures too. Sea monsters, zoo's, fishing trips, dragons, maps, I love to display them on the fridge.
You are such a worrier. You are worried about me being away when I go have this baby. We were talking about it the other day and you asked when again (as to you, it is taking forever). I said mum will go very early in the morning to have him you said and we will stay with dad with alarm on your face. I said no daddy will come with me then you started panicing about being left on your own. I explained that you would have a sleep over with Manly nan and pop. Then you were worried that you wouldn't wake up to be the first one to see the baby. I assured you nan and pop would wake you and bring you to the hospital to see me and the new baby. You love to "freak the baby out" as you call it you place your head on my tummy and listen for him then if he doesn't move you blow raspberries on my tummy. You think it is so funny. God I love you! You have been so helpful since I have a big stomache. You know it is hard for me to pick up mess off the floor so you go around and pick everything up and put it on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over to get it. You have also a few times just decided to pick up the toyroom toys for me to make it easier on me <3 <3 <3
You are so excited by Kaylie and Lindsays wedding. I suspect when it actually happens you will be like what is that all it was. I know you will have a good time at Salamanders Bay though.
Zack you are the most wonderful, specialist big boy. Love you so much!!!!
Love Mum
You are getting so big. Both size and in maturity. I tell you all the time it makes me sad and you ask why I said because you are my baby. Your answer to that is Mahli is your baby and soon you will have a new baby. You don't understand yet that you will always be my baby no matter how old or big you are. You have had such a growth spurt the last month or so.
This last week of school holidays you and Ashton have been playing so nicely together. None of the fighting I usually have. I just love watching you play together. Its adorable! I also love seeing you be nice to your brother, he loves you so much and you can be so mean to him at times. You love to chase Mahli around on your hands and knees. She thinks its tops to as she runs away giggling from you. I gave Mahli a smack on the hand for being naughty the other day and I heard you mutter "stupid". I asked you what you said you looked at me in alarm and said nothing, I didn't say nothing. I said who is stupid and you looked at me like shit she heard me but answered you hurt Mahli, Don't hurt Mahli.
You are writing everything and have suprised me on how much you already know such as most of your numbers 0-10. You have such lovely handwriting at the moment to. I hope it stays that way. You can write pop and mum without having to copy just like your own name now. Won't be long until there is plenty more you can write as at the moment it is all you love to do. You are drawing some pretty impressive pictures too. Sea monsters, zoo's, fishing trips, dragons, maps, I love to display them on the fridge.
You are such a worrier. You are worried about me being away when I go have this baby. We were talking about it the other day and you asked when again (as to you, it is taking forever). I said mum will go very early in the morning to have him you said and we will stay with dad with alarm on your face. I said no daddy will come with me then you started panicing about being left on your own. I explained that you would have a sleep over with Manly nan and pop. Then you were worried that you wouldn't wake up to be the first one to see the baby. I assured you nan and pop would wake you and bring you to the hospital to see me and the new baby. You love to "freak the baby out" as you call it you place your head on my tummy and listen for him then if he doesn't move you blow raspberries on my tummy. You think it is so funny. God I love you! You have been so helpful since I have a big stomache. You know it is hard for me to pick up mess off the floor so you go around and pick everything up and put it on the lounge for me so I don't have to bend over to get it. You have also a few times just decided to pick up the toyroom toys for me to make it easier on me <3 <3 <3
You are so excited by Kaylie and Lindsays wedding. I suspect when it actually happens you will be like what is that all it was. I know you will have a good time at Salamanders Bay though.
Zack you are the most wonderful, specialist big boy. Love you so much!!!!
Love Mum
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Ashton Xavier 3 years 2 months
Dear Ash,
You are the most caring, sweetest soul I have ever met. You melt my heart every single day. You would do anything for anyone. You know how to make everyone feel loved. You laugh is music to my ears. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear you giggle, its just beautiful.
You are getting so good at talking now. When you are excited you sometimes get hard to understand but you are talking in sentences now and I can make out most of it. I was so worried about your speech. I am just so proud on how far you have come. I will say words to make you pronounce them correctly and you parrot me to you say it correctly. You are so clever :) I love you.
I love watching you play with your brother and sister. Your beautiful soul really shows here You make Mahli giggle as you play with her. Sometimes you two are off up to no good. Mahli has your crazy eyes like you do saying who me I am not going to do anything wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. Its so funny. Zack and you can chase after each other in fits of giggles. Watching you both sit together watching something or playing a game together is such a beautiful site.
The lovely trying three's have started with you though and oh there are times you can be bloody challenging LOL. I find you so hard to discipline. I don't know what it is but its just so hard. If you cry my heart breaks, I just can't deal with hearing you cry. I can listen to your brother and sister cry if they are being naughty without much worry but not you. You also get sooooo cranky wow you have a temper. You have started hitting and kicking me when I am making you do something you don't want to such as come home from manly nan and pops.
You are game obsessed at the moment. Mario on the DS lite is one of your favourites and you are good at it. Every day at sleep/rest time you take your leapad in with you and sometimes you play it the whole 2 hours I make you go in there for sometimes you still have your sleep. You are such a good boy with that. I need the rest time and you never fight me very hard about it. Sometimes you go in there before I am even ready to take you. NIght time sleeping is the same. As long as you have something to take in with you you are happy. I had to take the dinosaurs out bc you had thousands in there and truthfully I don't know how you slept. You are now happy to take DVD's with you and you go right off to sleep.
You are still dinosaur mad. Scooby doo too. Dinosaur train, dinosaur king, Scooby doo are your favourite DVD;s to watch right now. You still dance to parts in the movie getting up and boogying. You are so cute.
You are going through a stage where its hard to make you eat dinner. Some nights you will sit up and eat but the next you look and say yuck, don't like it even if we know you do. I hope it doesn't last as long as Zacks did.
Darling never stop giving me your beautiful grin, your sneaky kisses and hearing your wonderful laugh. I love you so much, you are my buddy!
Love you Always
Mum xoxo
You are the most caring, sweetest soul I have ever met. You melt my heart every single day. You would do anything for anyone. You know how to make everyone feel loved. You laugh is music to my ears. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear you giggle, its just beautiful.
You are getting so good at talking now. When you are excited you sometimes get hard to understand but you are talking in sentences now and I can make out most of it. I was so worried about your speech. I am just so proud on how far you have come. I will say words to make you pronounce them correctly and you parrot me to you say it correctly. You are so clever :) I love you.
I love watching you play with your brother and sister. Your beautiful soul really shows here You make Mahli giggle as you play with her. Sometimes you two are off up to no good. Mahli has your crazy eyes like you do saying who me I am not going to do anything wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. Its so funny. Zack and you can chase after each other in fits of giggles. Watching you both sit together watching something or playing a game together is such a beautiful site.
The lovely trying three's have started with you though and oh there are times you can be bloody challenging LOL. I find you so hard to discipline. I don't know what it is but its just so hard. If you cry my heart breaks, I just can't deal with hearing you cry. I can listen to your brother and sister cry if they are being naughty without much worry but not you. You also get sooooo cranky wow you have a temper. You have started hitting and kicking me when I am making you do something you don't want to such as come home from manly nan and pops.
You are game obsessed at the moment. Mario on the DS lite is one of your favourites and you are good at it. Every day at sleep/rest time you take your leapad in with you and sometimes you play it the whole 2 hours I make you go in there for sometimes you still have your sleep. You are such a good boy with that. I need the rest time and you never fight me very hard about it. Sometimes you go in there before I am even ready to take you. NIght time sleeping is the same. As long as you have something to take in with you you are happy. I had to take the dinosaurs out bc you had thousands in there and truthfully I don't know how you slept. You are now happy to take DVD's with you and you go right off to sleep.
You are still dinosaur mad. Scooby doo too. Dinosaur train, dinosaur king, Scooby doo are your favourite DVD;s to watch right now. You still dance to parts in the movie getting up and boogying. You are so cute.
You are going through a stage where its hard to make you eat dinner. Some nights you will sit up and eat but the next you look and say yuck, don't like it even if we know you do. I hope it doesn't last as long as Zacks did.
Darling never stop giving me your beautiful grin, your sneaky kisses and hearing your wonderful laugh. I love you so much, you are my buddy!
Love you Always
Mum xoxo
Monday, September 2, 2013
Amahlia May 15 months
Dear Mahli,
Oh the joy you bring me! You are getting so big so quickly. You also have a HUGE personality! but oh how I love it. You make me laugh every day.
You have become quite the cuddly little thing lately you are giving me so many cuddles every day even if some of them can be a bit rough. Not all of them though so of them are just beautiful, you lay your head on me wrap your hands around me and just squeeze. You also love to put your hands either side of my face and smile at me, sometimes giving me a little pat. Another favourite is Eskimo kisses where you rub your noes against mine with your hand either side of me face. I love every minute of all of your cuddles! I will NEVER EVER get tired of them. I hope you never stop.
You are such a demanding little thing. If you want something you yell until you get it. If I say no then you yell and cry. You are even known for throwing things if you are not getting something your way. Yes your brothers do that at time but not as young as you are doing it. It does give me a little laugh though.
You have your brothers wrapped around your little finger and I am sure you always will being the only girl. Today when we were picking up Zack from pre school he told all of his friends they had to say goodbye to you and wave to you bc you will wave back. It was rather cute. He is so proud of you and to call you his brother. Ashton has started giving you kisses and proudly jumps up and down saying I give Mahli a lovely kiss. He is also giving out cuddles to you. You to get up to no good I can see you walking around together trying to find something to get up to together.
You are trying to copy your brothers and jump up and down when you are excited just like they do. Its so cute bc you can't jump instead you lift one leg up and down laughing and smiling. I love watching it. I do wonder where that kangaroo you all have comes from.
THAT SMILE OMG that cheeky ginning smile. It looks so fake! It looks so much like you are saying I couldn't do a thing wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. You walk around and give that grin to us and Manly nan and pop all the time. I am perfect I wouldn't do anything naughty. Its so funny.
You are saying so many words now. Mum, dad, nan, puss, please, woof for example. You are still a bloody climber and will be the death on me it freaks me out. Your fav is to climb onto the lounge and then limb onto the arm of the lounge and look out the window, turn around and give me that grin that I am clever. Then you like to run back and forwards on the lounge shit it scares me.
Mahli you are my beautiful, precious girl. Don't ever change! I love you so much.
Love Mum
Oh the joy you bring me! You are getting so big so quickly. You also have a HUGE personality! but oh how I love it. You make me laugh every day.
You have become quite the cuddly little thing lately you are giving me so many cuddles every day even if some of them can be a bit rough. Not all of them though so of them are just beautiful, you lay your head on me wrap your hands around me and just squeeze. You also love to put your hands either side of my face and smile at me, sometimes giving me a little pat. Another favourite is Eskimo kisses where you rub your noes against mine with your hand either side of me face. I love every minute of all of your cuddles! I will NEVER EVER get tired of them. I hope you never stop.
You are such a demanding little thing. If you want something you yell until you get it. If I say no then you yell and cry. You are even known for throwing things if you are not getting something your way. Yes your brothers do that at time but not as young as you are doing it. It does give me a little laugh though.
You have your brothers wrapped around your little finger and I am sure you always will being the only girl. Today when we were picking up Zack from pre school he told all of his friends they had to say goodbye to you and wave to you bc you will wave back. It was rather cute. He is so proud of you and to call you his brother. Ashton has started giving you kisses and proudly jumps up and down saying I give Mahli a lovely kiss. He is also giving out cuddles to you. You to get up to no good I can see you walking around together trying to find something to get up to together.
You are trying to copy your brothers and jump up and down when you are excited just like they do. Its so cute bc you can't jump instead you lift one leg up and down laughing and smiling. I love watching it. I do wonder where that kangaroo you all have comes from.
THAT SMILE OMG that cheeky ginning smile. It looks so fake! It looks so much like you are saying I couldn't do a thing wrong, butter wouldn't melt in my mouth. You walk around and give that grin to us and Manly nan and pop all the time. I am perfect I wouldn't do anything naughty. Its so funny.
You are saying so many words now. Mum, dad, nan, puss, please, woof for example. You are still a bloody climber and will be the death on me it freaks me out. Your fav is to climb onto the lounge and then limb onto the arm of the lounge and look out the window, turn around and give me that grin that I am clever. Then you like to run back and forwards on the lounge shit it scares me.
Mahli you are my beautiful, precious girl. Don't ever change! I love you so much.
Love Mum
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Christmas 2012
Dear my precious',
Another Christmas is over and gee you were spoilt. I still 2 days later don't know where I am going to put everything. Christmas eve I brought your santa sacks to dad while you were not here and he says to me. Good to see you didn't go overboard LOL. What can I say I could have gone more overboard. I love to buy you things and make you happy.
Christmas Eve we went to Bib's house and you had a ball running around with Ella and Gemma. Playing on the trampoline and waiting until it was time to go home and get ready for Santa to come. When we got home you were so excited Zack. I quickly popped the 3 of you and me in the shower for a quick wash then we started to get ready. As soon as we got out of the shower and I was dressed I told you to go sit on the lounge as I had a present for you. I sat Amahlia in between you both and got your presents. You opened them up and you Zack pipped up with why is it only clothes, most unimpressed. I had to laugh. When I told you they were Christmas pj's to wear because Santa was coming tonight you excitedly put them on. Zack you and I then went to get the reindeers some food. You chose to give them 2 carrots and some broccoli. When I asked you what you wanted to leave for Santa you said milk, a banana and a mango. So that is what we left out. You didn't want santa to get to fat LOL. You then laid out everyones santa sacks getting very annoyed with Ashton as he moved them around on you. Then the 4 of us went into your room to watch a movie while your father passed out on the lounge.
I woke Zack and Ashton up at 7.30am unable to wait for you any longer wanting to see your eyes light up while opening your presents from Santa. Zack got right into it openeing present after present every now and then going over to get something out from mum and dads stockings to open it for them. Ashton was happy running around with the first present you opened. Ash finally got into it and you all had a ball. While you were opening your presents Mahli woke up and I let you help her open her presents after you had opened all of both of yours.
We then went to Manly nan and pops for breakfast and more presents. Then off to Eel nans and pops for lunch and more presents. After lunch we went to Aunty Kims to meet with everyone to open more presesnts from everyone. You had a great time being santa's helpers and handing out the presents and opening your own.
After seeing everyone and opening all your presents we went home so you can play with everything and I mean EVERYTHING you got. You were all very very spoilt.
Another Christmas is over and gee you were spoilt. I still 2 days later don't know where I am going to put everything. Christmas eve I brought your santa sacks to dad while you were not here and he says to me. Good to see you didn't go overboard LOL. What can I say I could have gone more overboard. I love to buy you things and make you happy.
Christmas Eve we went to Bib's house and you had a ball running around with Ella and Gemma. Playing on the trampoline and waiting until it was time to go home and get ready for Santa to come. When we got home you were so excited Zack. I quickly popped the 3 of you and me in the shower for a quick wash then we started to get ready. As soon as we got out of the shower and I was dressed I told you to go sit on the lounge as I had a present for you. I sat Amahlia in between you both and got your presents. You opened them up and you Zack pipped up with why is it only clothes, most unimpressed. I had to laugh. When I told you they were Christmas pj's to wear because Santa was coming tonight you excitedly put them on. Zack you and I then went to get the reindeers some food. You chose to give them 2 carrots and some broccoli. When I asked you what you wanted to leave for Santa you said milk, a banana and a mango. So that is what we left out. You didn't want santa to get to fat LOL. You then laid out everyones santa sacks getting very annoyed with Ashton as he moved them around on you. Then the 4 of us went into your room to watch a movie while your father passed out on the lounge.
I woke Zack and Ashton up at 7.30am unable to wait for you any longer wanting to see your eyes light up while opening your presents from Santa. Zack got right into it openeing present after present every now and then going over to get something out from mum and dads stockings to open it for them. Ashton was happy running around with the first present you opened. Ash finally got into it and you all had a ball. While you were opening your presents Mahli woke up and I let you help her open her presents after you had opened all of both of yours.
We then went to Manly nan and pops for breakfast and more presents. Then off to Eel nans and pops for lunch and more presents. After lunch we went to Aunty Kims to meet with everyone to open more presesnts from everyone. You had a great time being santa's helpers and handing out the presents and opening your own.
After seeing everyone and opening all your presents we went home so you can play with everything and I mean EVERYTHING you got. You were all very very spoilt.
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| Sacks all out waiting for Santa to come |
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| Santa's snack |
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| Reindeer food |
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| Santa's been!!! |
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| Sleeping beauty! |
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| Oh dear |
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| Chrissy day dress |
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| All the toys Lucky lot |
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