Koen Lachlan 6 weeks old

Dear Koen,
I love you! You are such a gorgeous, precious little man. I can tell already you have a firery temperament, but I can also see you are going to be cuddly, you love me to hold you and I love when you stretch out on my chest  with your head to the side, just chilling I could sit there with you like that forever. Pity your siblings don't like it especially Mahli.

You sure can let out a squeal/scream. Your brothers and sister couldn't cry/squeal like you can. I suppose being the fourth you need to be loud so we can hear you over your noisy siblings. You don't cry to much though really. There has only been a couple times you have had me stressed bc you wouldn't stop crying. You mainly cry when you have a pain, which makes me sad, bc I just want to fix it for you which I try my best to do.

You HATE to be put down. You won't be down for anymore then a few minutes till you let me know you don't like this, pick me up right now. Its just like you are showing me you love me just as much as I love you. At times you could be crying with your father, he passes you to me and you settle down right away. Melts my heart and I love that you love me as much as I love you and that I can tell that already at 6 weeks old. Although this makes it so hard to get photos of you. I don't want photos of you crying I want nice photos. I just can't get them when you want to be held by me.

You are Mr serious too. I am currently trying SOOOOO hard to get you to smile. I know you are only young but you have given me one smile and it was beautiful and you gave Manley pop one too. BUT you frown and look at me like I am an idiot most of the time. It will come soon. I can't wait.

I had to take you back to the hospital when you were 4.5 weeks old. You were still a little yellow and I wanted to make sure it was all ok. Even though I pretty much knew you were as you were so happy, healthy etc I thought it was better to be safe then sorry. They took your blood and OMG you screamed so much I have never heard you scream so much. It was breaking my heart. You were so red and sweating. There was blood everywhere all up your foot and leg :(. Then they told me I had to go back 3 days later to have another one I so wasn't looking forward to it. This time you hardly cried at all. It was all ok, made me feel better just knowing for sure.

You are such a good feeder, have been since the first time I held you properly. I can tell how much weight you have gained and how much you have grown already. It seems like you have grown so much. It actually makes me a little sad that you are growing so fast. You need to slow down precious little man.

You are another tummy sleeper. Gives me heart attacks. I am to scared to let you sleep of a night by yourself on your tummy. You will sleep for a little while in your basinett on your side but most of the time that is until I get into bed to sleep or an hour later. So most if not all of the night you sleep in my hands of a night, every night. It kills my back but its worth it. I do love the cuddles but laying in the same position for so long isn't the most comfortable. You are a good sleeper though, best I have had you sleep much longer then your brothers and sister at your age, which I am thankful for. Because it is hard work raising 4 kids.

Koen I love you so much. I am so happy you chose me to be your mummy. I will make mistakes, make you unhappy, yell and get frustrated at you. BUT ALWAYS, ALWAYS remember that I love you more than any words can express. I would do anything for you, you and your brothers and sister are my whole world and without you and them my life wouldn't be worth it. I love you precious little man.
Love Mum xoxo